I’ve always shied away
from happiness,
I thought it was just
a dream,
but it seems everyone
is content.
I wonder how long
I’ve spent looking into
darkness.
Wondering how I can
dig my way out.
I used to shout at
myself because
I never knew what
it was to live.
I just hope I can
forgive myself for
taking a few years
out.
Waking up to see
leaves, and colour.
Hearing the love in
my mother’s voice.
Asking how we
got here.
Drinking beer.
Feeling my heart thump
for the wrong people.
Wearing clothes
that others would
hate.
Waiting for the
good around the
corner.
Hearing the sea
crashing against
the sand.
Respecting other faiths.
Slowing down to see
the world.
My ears can only
take in so much.
My eyes can clearly see
the mysteries of
life.
It has taken me
a while to get here,
but now I don’t fear
what is ahead.
Whatever hits me is just
a bump,
a scar that marks the land.
I’m learning to take
life by the
hands.